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Here I am!! WOW I have been so busy lately!

I only sewed buttons one day. LOL

If you are a reader of my other blog Walking My Way To Health then you know I have begun Weight Watchers and I am really trying to keep my focus in the right places. It is tough to go from eating whatever I want(candy, second helpings, junk...) to counting each and every bite. I know I will get the hang of it and I have already lost 2 pounds, so it is all good!


I really wanted to post last week but didn't get the chance. Last Monday was Memorial day and my hubby was off work so we had a good day. Then on Tuesday my wonderful friend April kept my kids so I could have a day all to myself! That was AMAZING!!!! I cleaned house all morning and then my hubby got off work at noon so we also had some time together without the kids. It was nice but we did miss them! It was REALLY quiet! LOL
It is so important to take that alone time though. I truly was refreshed and I appreciate you SO much April!
Then we had a yard sale on Friday and Saturday so the rest of my week was spent getting that ready. Then Saturday we had our yard sale, we had to close up early so that we could go to Jacob's end of season Soccer get together. That was from 11-2. Then at 4 we all went to a cookout at the park. It really was a full weekend!

The month of May has been a little of a whirl wind for me. Our church had our last service on May 25th. It is all in God's timing and He is taking us to greater things but it is still a little unreal to me. So Sunday we went to our new church for the first time as in being "our" church. We have family and friends there and we have visited there some in the past. And it is the church we were at when God moved us to Journey Church 4 & 1/2 years ago. So we know the church. It is just really weird that we will never be at Journey Church again. I know God has new & exciting things for all of us. My flesh is just having a hard time letting go of it all.

Then yesterday I tried to catch up on my house from the weekend and that is why I couldn't find time to blog. And my sweet hubby comes in from work and tells me that at the end of July he is gonna be laid off for 3 months. So last night and today I have really been pondering all of this before I blogged.

I really want to give you this amazing spill of wisdom and faith but to be completly honest and transparent, I don't feel very wise nor do I feel like I have much faith. I do not understand why we have to continue to go backwards financially. I KNOW this is not God's plan for our life. I just don't understand right now. I know other people are going through much worse and our situation could be much worse, but for me, right now, this is a pit. I know in my heart what to do. Trust God and lean NOT on my own understanding. His ways are higher that my own. He will never leave me nor forsake me.

I guess right now my mind is not listening to my heart and it is just really tough not understanding. I'm sorry to be like this and that I am not stronger in this moment. I guess someone needs to see that even the "wisdom lady" has times that I am weak and in these times I WILL allow God to carry me because I can't walk through this pit myself. If you have gotten to the end of this, please don't go away from this post feeling down and out. Go away knowing that your prayers are needed and that you CAN make a difference in my life right now by praying for me. I am sure that in a few days I will be posting about some type of miracle that my Daddy God has brought into my life. You ask how I know this? He has never left me nor forsaken me. And He has ALWAYS proven Himself faithful to me. So even though I am in a pit, I still have the faith to get me through.