weary no longer...

Psalms 63:1

1 O God, you are my God,earnestly I seek you;

my soul thirsts for you,

my body longs for you,

in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
2 I have seen you in the sanctuary

and beheld your power and your glory.

3 Because your love is better than life,

my lips will glorify you.

4 I will praise you as long as I live,

and in your name I will lift up my hands.

5 My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods;

with singing lips my mouth will praise you.

It seems like the last couple of months I have been in a funk. You know, when you pray and you feel like there is a glass ceiling above you and your prayers are just bouncing off. A lot of this feeling is because I have allowed myself to grow weary. In all of the well doing and just living my life I have allowed the enemy to sneak in with weariness. Well, no longer!!!!

I am going to earnestly seek Him no matter what I FEEL. I am tired of being in this dry and weary land where there is no water! My soul thirsts and my body longs for Him. And I have so many times seen Him and beheld His power and His everlasting glory! He is so much better than anything I have EVER experienced or ever will. His love is better than life itself and I will praise Him and my lips will sing praises to Him!!!!

I have to say here that all of this sounds great and all but in the midst of trial and the dry lands when I am no longer feeling Him what will my response be? Well, it will be a choice to still praise Him and realize how amazing He is, no matter what.

I want to make it clear that it is a choice I make every day. It is not some miracle feeling that makes me serve my Daddy God each morning when I get up. It is because I owe Him my life! As of right now I am in the midst of the dry lands still but I am choosing to reach up toward His hand and allow Him to pull me out of the dry lands. And in all reality it is a choice I am making every minute, not just every morning. When I get up- I choose to be happy and grateful that He has given me another day, when my kids are sick and crying- I choose to praise Him and believe that the fever will go away soon, when I have too many people calling my name at once and I feel like I am going to have a panic attack if I hear my name one more time- I choose to allow Him to be my peace.

God is my everything and living for Him isn't just something I do, it is who I am. I feel like if I go one day without my best friend, God, I might just die. He is the breath I breathe, He is the calm in my storms, He is the love I have in my heart for the people around me that may not be so nice to me, He is my everything!

This post has gone nothing like I had planned when I got on here so I hope and pray that whoever this is for, you will allow God to speak to you through my ramblings and that I have been used to help get you to the next place God has for you.

I have slacked in my posting and I am really going to try and get back to this. In the last few weeks I have felt like there were things that God put in my heart to post and I just didn't find the time. It is also a great tool for me to get things out of my head and see them so that God can show me things that I may have been ignoring.

Well, that is all for tonight. I pray that each of you have a blessed Sunday and that God will use each of you to change the life of someone who needs you.