Prayers needed

Hello all. I am posting to ask for your prayers. This weekend and this moorning I had a bit of a breakdown. OK, more than a bit, I was a MESS! I think with all that I have dealt with in the last year with my step-dad passing away last September and my mom not dealing well with that and seeing her go downhill fast, my church closing and changing churches, trying to exercise and eat right and lose weight while losing sleep, the stress of not knowing if George would have a job or not and keeping my little Zoe at the same time we were starting school--it has all proven to be too much.

It is hard to explain in words what I have been feeling. But everyone I have talked to says that it sounds like anxiety and stress. I can't control the crying. I get to where I am afraid to leave the house bevause I am afraid I will have a panic attack. I can't eat because I am so sick. There are waves of this that have consumed me the last few days. I have even had a hard time having a conversation with people. I am still unsure if it is something physical or if it is just stress/anxiety. I went to the doctor and they did lots of blood work and I go for some tests in the morning to make sure everything is working right on the inside. Then I go on Friday to see my regular doctor and get all the results. Also my blood pressure was way high today.

After talking to Zoe's mom, she is deciding to put Zoe in daycare. It seems that keeping her is just too much for me right now. I am sad but I understand her point. Please continue to pray for her too and I am sure I will be keeping in touch with them about her surgery and I will let you all know.

This is tough for me because I usually have a good handle on things. Please pray that the doctor will be led by God and know what the problem is and how to help me. I am pretty desperate right now and have had lots of feelings of hopelessness, fear, panic. And I know this stuff isn't from God, it isn't His will for me to feel this way. That is why it is so hard to not be able to just snap out of it.

I will update when I feel better. Thank you all in advance!