Inside Out...........

Inside out....interesting thought. At the moment I am allowing God to turn me inside out and it is a bit uncomfortable but in a good way. ;^)

First I want to say a big thank you to my friend Aprille for hijacking my blog and giving you all some excitement. I know I can always count on you Aprille! LOL

Now to the serious stuff. At this present time I am going through some things and I am gonna just pour it out here a little and hopefully it will help someone else along the way and maybe make a little more sense to me.

I am at a place in my walk with God that is a major turning point. I either have to let Him turn me completly into what He wants or stay at this spot and never go to the next level He has for me. And quite frankly I have been in this spot WAY too long and have no desire to be here any longer!!!
Have you ever been at a point in your walk with Him where you know that you are gonna go through a time of quietness? I am not really sure what to call this time in my life. Quietness is the closest thing that I can think of to call it.

I am gonna have to quit talking so much and spend some time listening and being quiet. And by that I not only mean in my prayer life but also spending WAY less time on the phone, less time on the computer. I am gonna have to quit trying to find answers from other people and rely more on God to help me through my tests. And more time doing what I know I am called to do. Really giving my all to being a wife, homeschooling my children, praying for the hurting, just doing everything 100% instead of half way. I am at a point that I am getting tired of my own excuses so I am sure God is really tired of them.

A saying has been dropped in my spirit lately. It is that we need to get revelation from God and then allow Him to transform us.
~Revelation & Transformation~
It seems so simple but it is so not simple. The revelation is the easy part, the transformation hurts. Think about it, when you transform something you have to twist it and squeeze it until it no longer resembles what it once was and it is a new creation. This, my friends, is why I feel I am being turned inside out! I am finally going with what He has for me and allowing Him to transform me into what He wants me to be.

We will always be in growing stages and should always be learning something from God but I am having some MAJOR ah-ha moments lately that are changing my whole way of thinking.

I am finally at the point where I am sure that I am called to do something great and I now know what that is! I have prayed for so long to God that I just want to know my place. I want to be great at something and allow You to use me in it. And I now know that I am to work in women's ministry. Last Friday night I was at a service and as the lady walked up and began to speak God just softly spoke to my heart and said," This is what you were created to do." Now I have to say that of course my husband and children are my first ministry and will always be. But lately I have been seeking God on what my purpose is in helping others. And He gently placed a longing in me to minister to, teach, help, encourage other women. I have such an excitement to do this!

And so now I feel that I am at the beginning of this amazing long road and before I can get to the point that I am allowed to really jump into this ministry, I have got to get this quiet time with God. I am now in the training time to get ready for the great things He wants to do through me. And to do those things He will have to remold me and I will have to conform to what He wants for my life and allow my attitude to be changed into what He wants it to be.

I almost feel raw right now in my own skin. And again, in a good way. I feel like God has begun to exfoliate my soul and all of the dead, useless ideas are flaking off and the new "skin" is now going to be allowed to grow and be where it is intended to be.

I have to say here that if it were not for my pastors wife, Misty, I would not be where I am today. She has gently helped me scoot along this path and I have learned SO MUCH from her about how to be a mom and a wife and a friend. A few short years ago I was a very selfish person and was very ashamed of it. I can truly say that I am no longer selfish and any greatness that comes out of me is because of God. I am nothing without Him! So I want to say thank you to Misty my friend and my sister in Christ who has helped me see the greatness that God has placed inside of me, and that I AM WORTH IT!!! No matter my past God will use me if I am a willing vessel. The same with you. No matter what you have done, God will turn you inside out if you will let Him and He will use you if you will be a willing vessel.

So my words of wisdom for today are:
Be quiet with God and allow Him to begin to turn you inside out!